In memory of Matilda Mae

I was up early one morning a couple of days before Easter and saw a tweet saying "Twins on Toddlebikes!" and a link to an article.  As we're big fans of Toddlebike here at Cycle Sprog, I was keen find out how the twins had got on, and clicked through to this excellent article. I smiled at the photos and posted an innocent comment wishing them all well.

As I always like to see what other mums and dads are writing about, I had a browse through some of the other blogs. I was totally unprepared for what I found.

Within a few minutes I had tears streaming down my face.

The blog, Edspire, is run by Jennie Nairn, mum to the aforementioned twins (Ester and William), and little Matilda Mae.   Until earlier this year Jennie was living a life similar to any other busy mum with three young children. On 2nd February 2013 Matilda Mae was exactly 9 months old. She crawled for the very first time, and that night Jennie kissed her goodnight at bedtime, like so many times before.

Only this time beautiful Matilda Mae didn't wake up. At some point during the night beautiful Matilda Mae became yet another victim of Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS).

Matilda Mae charity auction

I can't even begin to comprehend what it must be like to find your precious baby lifeless, or how Jennie, her husband David and the twins have coped over the past few months.

But Jennie has given a glimpse into the heartarche, the memories and the resolve to survive through her writing.

The first post she wrote after Matilda Mae passed away is one of the most moving narratives you're likely to read in a long time.

In the days that followed, Jennie and her family were frequently in my thoughts. When I crept into my boys room late at night to kiss them goodnight, I was profoundly grateful we'd escaped this most cruel and random of fates. My boys are growing fast, their gangly limbs taking up more and more space in their beds each night.  How, I wondered, do Jennie and David cope?

One of the answers, is their refusal to let Matilda Mae's death be in vain. They have vowed to keep her memory alive, and raise money to support The Lullaby Trust.

The Lullaby Trust has just changed its name from FSID, and provides specialist support for bereaved families, promotes expert advice on safer baby sleep and supports research to understand why babies die suddenly and unexpectedly and to find out more about how to prevent these tragic deaths.

For the next 10 days, an auction is being held, to raise money for The Lullaby Trust. There are some great items in the auction, all donated by an impressive range of supporters.  The auction is being administered by Tots100 (who are listed as the seller).

There are two ebay accounts hosting items:


- please do what you can to help.

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  1. Jennie says:

    Thank you so much for sharing our story and supporting The Lullaby Trust x Thank you x

  2. Thank you so much for helping to spread the word of the auction. This is such a beautiful post

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